Final News

I need to apologize for the lack of info on the blog this last time, you see I spent 2 hours typing up everything last friday to only find out in the end that at some point the internet disconnected and I did not know, so the info you read about I was thankful that much was saved. I kept meaning to get back and update all the info but just didn't. All of that is irrelevent anyway in the news we received yesterday. I was not really prepared to hear what I heard and neither was Dan. I thought they would tell us how they would proceed with surgery and the risks and all that, but they simply told us that they have looked and looked and radiologists have reviewed and reviewed and doctors across the country have looked and that at this point their is nothing they can do. The cancer has spread to his intestins and is in all the major 4 veins and portal veins that they need to hook up organs to and so even if they attempted a multipile transplant that the portal veins wouln't be able to be used. The doctor said that no doctor would even open him up at this point the risk that he would die on the table is to high and if he survived the amount and quality of time he has left would be shortened. This Doctor said he even called his good friend in Miami who is the only doctor that he knows of that has done a multiple transplant at the same time to see if he would come and do it or give advice, he said no he would not that even though surgery itself was successful they all died within a couple of months. usually the cancer is in microscopic places and when you do a transplant it supresses the immune system and that cancer comes on with a vengence, so noone was willing to put him through that. They said to take him home and enjoy what time we have left with him. they said he would probably have a good few months where he seemed relativley happy and healthy but that when the cancer goes to his stomach it will be all down hill from there. We discussed chemo a little but they discouraged it saying in the last few weeks since we have done it it has spread and we know it won't kill this kind of cancer and all it does is make him sick and onrey and that we should just enjoy him while we can. They cannot give us a definite time line only becouse every one is different but probably 6 months to a year or less if it continues to go as fast as it is.

We are so grateful to all of you and for your prayers and fasting on our behalf, please don't stop praying I'm sure we will need it. Thank you to our present giver whoever you are the Faith and Hope blocks are darling and I'm sure we will need every bit of faith and hope. To our breakfast giver of doughnuts on Sunday morning what a fun treat that was, what a fun idea. We enjoyed them of course. As I type this blog up this morning through tears and a heavy heart, I am once again overwhelmed by the love of all of you, you see the doorbell rang and their stood Bishop Lacey at our door. I thought Dan had called and given him the news but he came to bring an early Christmas present a video camera, of course I lost it and cried some more and finally told bishop Lacey about our news and how Dan and I looked at each other last night and said we need to get a video camera, and that every year we always wanted to get one but their was never any money left over at Christmas to get one. We are full of gratitude to our video camera givers whoever you are may you know how grateful we are, and we will surley use it in the next several months and years ahead. I pray the Lord blesses all of you 100 fold for your service and secret acts of kindness, whatever we have needed seems to show up at our door or in the mailbox just at the time we needed it. There are no words to express our feelings for all of you, but I pray daily that we will be blessed with opportunities to serve all of you. Thank you to the Sprouse family and the McNaughtan family for winterizing our yard, its funny I look around and see all of these things that need to be done and we are either running to PCMC or truly they seem somehow less important to get done, its a strange feeling you want to do it and know it needs to be done but getting to it seems less important, so thank you to my wonderful neighbors for just seeing and doing even though we should have gotten to it I do have teenagers to help out.

In the meantime we are going to send Andrew to school and let him have as much normalacy as we can before he gets really sick. He keeps asking questions about dying and what is Heaven like. His uniqe personality keeps showing through even through all of this, you know whatever he is thinking he says. It is interesting the last few nights it is alsmost as if he knew even before we did that his time is coming to an end here on earth, because the last few nights as Dan and I tuck him in bed we have been up till about 11:30 talking about dying and Heaven and crying and trying to answer all his questions. He is a very smart kid but his sense of humor comes through such as he asked will I like Heaven we say yes he says I don't think so it is probably boring, or he asked do you sleep in Heaven we said probably not you don't have your body so you don't need to sleep he says then I don't want to go the heaven because I like my bed to sleep in, or I told him his mission may be on the other side of the veil and he said that is no fun that would be a dumb mission because he wants to stay here and go someplace cool, He goes around saying but you will be right behind me right mom you will be just a second and you'll be in heaven because in heaven every minute in heaven is a 1000 years on earth. So our saying around here is we'll be just behind you in just a second. We'll continue keeping you updated on this and Thank you so much to everyone again! We love you all! Andrew says he doesn't have anything to say.